sound vs silence

you say your brain

is almost always

silent

and i can’t imagine

because mine shouts

so loudly

reminding me of

that embarrassing thing i said

the other day

in the same breath as it

wonders what i’ll be eating

in the morning

my mind is constantly on

overdrive

but some way

somehow

it quiets

when i’m with you

when i’m with you

i’m present

i’m not thinking about

what i could be doing

or should be doing

not pondering my

past mistakes

and future transgressions

when my mind does wander

it walks straight to you

it carves a path from your head

to your heart

and walks up and down

trying to decipher the

emotion

under every stone

and the meaning

in every inch of pavement

when i’m with you

i think deeply

but i do not worry

my anxiety sleeps soundly

in a bed of your reassurance

as i lay within your arms

and even as we talk through

anything and everything

i’m not afraid

because i know that as far as i can

fall

is also as far as you’ll go

to catch me

so i say what i feel

or at least try to

and trust that you’ll hold my words

with soft hands

and an open heart

you say your brain

is almost always quiet

and i often wish for that

luxury

to think so much feels

more like a curse

than a blessing

most of the time

but more and more now

i do not mind the

constantly spinning wheel

of my mind

not when so often

it circles back

to you