time
dedicated to Jaydon
time
is such a silly way of
measuring meaning
people always point to
how long it’s been
to indicate
how well they know someone
but i spent a year smiling about things
i cried to her about
within a month
people love to say
time heals
but it’s been years
and i still think about it
and i imagine it’ll be
many more years
before i stop thinking about
you
when i measure the time i
knew you
it feels almost
inconsequential
unimportant
easily forgotten
but when i think of our talks
sitting on my
crusty dorm carpet
as you told me about october
and i told you that
you deserved better
when i think of the calls
daily lunches
and walks around campus
8 am gym sessions where you
cussed me out during core
before forcing me under
the bench press
saying it was good for me
truly i think it was you
that was good for me
and six months of
inside jokes
memories
facetimes and fake fights
boxing and banter
cannot be reduced to
“you only knew him
half a year”
six months can break a habit
six months can build an attachment
six months can change a life
and from the day we met
you changed mine
time is such a
silly way
of measuring meaning
so even though your life
has ended
i’ll remember you
for the rest of mine
🙏🏾