unanswered questions

sometimes i wonder if

i could’ve loved you

better

if there was something

i could’ve done

to make you into the man

you’ve now decided to be

or if to you

i was never worth it

and never would’ve been

i suppose i can at least be

proud

that you finally decided

you’re worth it

and all it took

was losing me

there are worse things

to sacrifice

and i could never fault you

for becoming better

just wonder why

if you really did

love me

you couldn’t be better

with me by your side

did my complacency

limit you

in my effort to be

understanding

was i instead simply

enabling

i know now

that i deserve more

but i wonder if you would’ve been

capable

of providing it

if i’d asked

or if that would’ve been another prayer

spoken upon deaf ears

i didn’t want you to change

for me

but changing so quickly

after me

does sting

rubbing salt in the

still healing wounds

of your inability to

be more

do more

want more

dream more

as if i was

clipping your wings

instead of

begging you

to fly

sometimes i wonder

if i loved you at all

or if i mistook kindness

for compatibility

and set aside my expectations

in order to keep

the first good thing in front of me

good is only enough

when you never look up

and i have always wanted

to soar